I may not know any of you 'in skin', but I just want you all to know that you are the best support system a woman could ask for. Just knowing that some of you are there to listen to me, has been amazing. I keep plugging along, and keep focusing on the joys of life. Thank you all for being here for me. May you each feel an extra measure of love in your life today directly from my heart to yours.
Now on to the details in my life.
No job. Sigh. I have pulled out the stops, and called all the professionals in my life, and I'm getting a new resume done. I feel like such a failure, but that's life, I'm going to learn and move on. Perhaps I will even get more dough because my resume is put together better.
The man...I don't know what to think. I know that he's not faithful. I know that he is depressed. I also am still feeling like if he can get through the depression the faithful part will come back. I know in my head that I just need to call it good, dust off my hands and step out into the wide world. I deserve fidelity. Truly. I just don't have a job to lean on right now. Soon I will. I KNOW I will.
My faith. Wow...to say that it is growing by leaps and bounds would be an understatement. Each day I encounter a little bit of grace that I hadn't even embraced. I feel sometimes as if I am walking around in a state of continuous revelations.
Me... well, I'm still in the skinny jeans. I'm doing well with the self control and weight loss. I think that part of that good stuff is because I'm not wallowing in depression. I am loving these dogs, and I am having a ton of fun going out for walks with them, and spending time playing chase the stick in the yard. I don't know if I ever mentioned that they are not Labrador Retrievers, but they are Labrador Locators. Fetch is not a word they comprehend, so what happens is that you throw a stick, then you chase down the stick, trying to beat the dog to it, who then snags the stick and just runs like crazy. It's hard to stay fat when chasing dogs.
I have found that I just love this town. I have so many good ideas for my future. Life is good, it's going to be better. I can't wait for the next adventure!