Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Feeling good

I've been feeling good about my life a lot more lately. I'm on my own, and that is so nice. I'm paying my bills and am starting to see when I'm going to have money left over at the end of payday and that is even more exciting. I am actually feeling empowered and excited about my future.

Yesterday at work I finally saw my goal as something that I can do. I have been creeping my way to 100% in quality. It's not as easy as I initially thought. It seems that I get points taken off for things that are stupid so I need to pay more attention to the basic things and I will be fine.

My love life is good. I like dating someone who is very consistent. I like me and where I am personally. I like the feeling of knowing that I can live without someone, and yet knowing that I really don't want to. I also feel very confident that whomever God has for me in my life, I am going to be very happy with myself first.

Pretty good, eh?

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Hi. My name is Pharisee.

Today, as I was sitting in church and listening to the pastors sermon, I had a thought, "Gosh, I'm so glad that I'm not like those brides that didn't have enough oil for their lamps, and they missed the bridegroom."


Then my add brain went into full gear. I guess I am not like those brides. I'm worse. I am more like a Pharisee. "Oh LORD thank you that I am not like those brides that did not have enough oil." Perhaps I would have better luck tearing my garments and pouring ashes over my head for more drama, Lord knows that those Pharisees didn't thrive on drama at all.

Today God took the time to really love me. He gave me friends that truly lift my spirit, and a church family that truly loves me.

Lord, help me to be like the brides, the ones who were ready with their oil, and help me to remind those who walk this path with me to bring their oil. Lord, help me to share the source of the faith that lights my lamp so that others will find their lamps overflowing with that faith and they will share their faith too.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Whispered words

This post may be a bit "adult" ( imagine the word "adult" whispered loudly instead of actually being spoken).

When I was in 3rd grade I was at my friend Deena's house. Her father owned a clothing store and they were not just wealthy, but I think that they were one of maybe 4 families in Bismarck that were Jewish. Deena's mom frequently sprinkled yiddish in her daily conversation, and I loved being at their house. They truly loved me and I felt very safe. Anyway, Deena and I were swimming in their pool and were talking in the shallow end, and she leaned close and said,"Katy, there's a hole between our legs and it's called a 'vagina' " She stage whispered the word vagina so I knew it was a forbidden word, I just wasn't sure if it was a word my mother would understand or if it was a word that her mother said.

After telling Denny this story, it's become our habit to just stage whisper ordinary words to each other. Of course, this is something that truly cracks us up and leaves most people in the world a little confused. I think it's the simple little jokes that make a couple feel like they are connected.

So, as I said to Denny earlier. I'm going to change clothes because I need to get ready to go "meet" Naomi. Maybe I'll buy her a "drink" and we can spend some time together "chatting" tonight. Stage whispers. Making the mundane a little more interesting.

Friday, November 7, 2008

A quick update

God is still good. Every day.

I went to the optometrist today, and the Dr. saw a couple microanyeurisms in my left eye. My vision has truly gone downhill in recent history. The Dr. held up a couple lenses for me to look through and there's going to be a bit more of a prescription, but I'm going to take a look at my blood sugars a little more closely before going in for a refraction. I am praising God for this, it was a real wake up call about my health. I have been working out still, and have secret dreams to have arms like Nicole C. Mullen, yeah, that's not going to happen, but I can dream. Anyway, I've just not paid such close attention to my diet, even though I'm losing weight because of my workouts at the gym.

I am enjoying my single life. Work is work. It has it's good and bad days. I have a few days off for vacation, and am glad to have them. No more being abused by customers for a bit!