God is still good. Every day.
I went to the optometrist today, and the Dr. saw a couple microanyeurisms in my left eye. My vision has truly gone downhill in recent history. The Dr. held up a couple lenses for me to look through and there's going to be a bit more of a prescription, but I'm going to take a look at my blood sugars a little more closely before going in for a refraction. I am praising God for this, it was a real wake up call about my health. I have been working out still, and have secret dreams to have arms like Nicole C. Mullen, yeah, that's not going to happen, but I can dream. Anyway, I've just not paid such close attention to my diet, even though I'm losing weight because of my workouts at the gym.
I am enjoying my single life. Work is work. It has it's good and bad days. I have a few days off for vacation, and am glad to have them. No more being abused by customers for a bit!
Friday, November 7, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Wow.
I've been silent since I posted last. My life has been insane. Insane, but good.
I will start posting more.
I am still employed by AIG. Yes. That AIG. Please pray for me. In between worrying about my actually having a job, and the stresses of paying rent and buying food, I put up with customers calling me and yelling at me.
This week, take a deep breath of air, and reconsider who you are venting on. Really.
I'm *just* an insurance agent. I can only work within the parameters of my companies guidelines. I cannot make your rate go down. If you carry car insurance, I have one little suggestion for you... 100/300 BI. That's it. Check it out, you get a lot of coverage, and it's often a lot less than state minimums.
I will start posting more.
I am still employed by AIG. Yes. That AIG. Please pray for me. In between worrying about my actually having a job, and the stresses of paying rent and buying food, I put up with customers calling me and yelling at me.
This week, take a deep breath of air, and reconsider who you are venting on. Really.
I'm *just* an insurance agent. I can only work within the parameters of my companies guidelines. I cannot make your rate go down. If you carry car insurance, I have one little suggestion for you... 100/300 BI. That's it. Check it out, you get a lot of coverage, and it's often a lot less than state minimums.
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
The date
Well, I was so scared, that when we met at B&N, I was feeling a little pukey. Then he kindly bought me hot chocolate which I promptly spilled on the table and on his lap. He managed to stay through the whole date.
On the way out of the store, he asked me if I wanted to go out on Saturday. I said yes. He said he'd wear a raincoat and bring a mop.
I'm going to have a second date!!
On the way out of the store, he asked me if I wanted to go out on Saturday. I said yes. He said he'd wear a raincoat and bring a mop.
I'm going to have a second date!!
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
eHarmony Chronicles
So, dating via eHarmony has jaded me a little about the prospects out there. I was talking with my very married friend Steve yesterday, describing my whole dating outlook, and he started laughing. I've known Steve for 20 years now, actually 23 years now. Ugh. Steve is one of those guys who doesn't have passion for his wife. She gets it. Steve saves his passion for his friends like me. No, it's not sexual passion, but it is love. Steve is just a human blanket. If you are hurting and call him up, he has this way of completely making you feel like you are totally worthy of breathing in about 5 minutes.
Anyway...I had one date with an eHarmony match a few weeks ago. It was laughable to say the least. He was an old 53, not a young 53, he still lived with mom, and he had not done much traveling at all.
Tomorrow night, it's a date with a local pharmacist at Barnes and Noble. I'm looking forward to this one, he sounds like he's got a good sense of humor, and he also has a little girl. I'm definitely not saying he's the one, I'm also not going to be jumping into anything. I am open minded and that's good.
More on eharmony. I've met a lot of men on eharmony who are most definitely africans trying to scam for money.
For example, you are matched up with someone who immediately confesses that they don't live in the states, they are living, or working in another country. The next step is an email requesting some money... they lost their wallet, they didn't bring enough money on their trip, they need money for their hotel bill. They don't ask for a huge amount of money, about 700 or 500 dollars. So I've sort of got the feeling as soon as I get a match that has bad english syntax, or writes something inappropriate in their questionaires that raises eyebrows.
Speaking of inappropriate confessions in the introductory profiles, what man says that he spends his free time "walking and reading romance novels"?
Yeah, it's not looking so good out there folks. It's ok though, I'll be your honest and fearless leader through the joys of dating. At 40. Oh. Boy.
Anyway...I had one date with an eHarmony match a few weeks ago. It was laughable to say the least. He was an old 53, not a young 53, he still lived with mom, and he had not done much traveling at all.
Tomorrow night, it's a date with a local pharmacist at Barnes and Noble. I'm looking forward to this one, he sounds like he's got a good sense of humor, and he also has a little girl. I'm definitely not saying he's the one, I'm also not going to be jumping into anything. I am open minded and that's good.
More on eharmony. I've met a lot of men on eharmony who are most definitely africans trying to scam for money.
For example, you are matched up with someone who immediately confesses that they don't live in the states, they are living, or working in another country. The next step is an email requesting some money... they lost their wallet, they didn't bring enough money on their trip, they need money for their hotel bill. They don't ask for a huge amount of money, about 700 or 500 dollars. So I've sort of got the feeling as soon as I get a match that has bad english syntax, or writes something inappropriate in their questionaires that raises eyebrows.
Speaking of inappropriate confessions in the introductory profiles, what man says that he spends his free time "walking and reading romance novels"?
Yeah, it's not looking so good out there folks. It's ok though, I'll be your honest and fearless leader through the joys of dating. At 40. Oh. Boy.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Unexpected love in numbers.
10. I have known that my life with Dan has been ending for the last 10 months. It didn't ever really get 'better'. It got worse and worse. Culminating in a comment from him just over a month ago, that my kids could not come to the house we share over the summer.
9. I have seen at least 9 different places to live in the last few months. I found a large, affordable mobile home. Perfect for the kids and me. It's 2 years old, meticulously clean, in a fantastic school district. It doesn't even look like a mobile home.
8. I have been applying to jobs for the last 8 months, NOTHING. Then this week I finally started hearing back on all those resumes and applications. It's looking VERY good here.
7. 7 weeks ago, my Stepmother (who both looks and sounds like Granny from the Beverly Hillbillies) gave me a membership to EHarmony.
6. It took me 6 weeks to make the decision to sign up, not expecting anything, really. Once signing up, it did not look so good out there. Lots of men that I was matched with were very lonely. Ok. Not really lonely more like horny. I had one date. In the middle of the date, he announced that he lived with his mom and he had never had a girlfriend before, and oh, by the way he'd had a heart attack 3 months ago. He was 50. I began to go to EHarmony for the entertainment.
5. 5 days ago I met someone who actually didn't offend me on EHarmony. I was stunned. He was actually friendly, understood my jokes, had a job (!!!!), and was honest about himself. Not once in any communications we've had did he tell me how wonderful he was. Heck, when I still communicate with Dan, all I hear is how great he is and how I've thrown away something good.
4. I told a friend of mine about him (we shall call him Mr. Mysterious Heartbeats for now -- MMH for short), and she laughed at me. She laughed at me because I was being so cautious. She said that I needed to put down my hands, and start paying attention to the gifts that God has been giving me, in His time, in His way. Four amazing things. Gary is going to Iraq in about 4 weeks. In 8 weeks I will have custody of the kids full time ( I'm letting them finish their school year before getting them). I have finally gotten my state residency settled. I have been surrounded by godly women who love me and guide me.
3. I have heard from 3 women whom Dan has had sex with. They all have contacted me. It's freaky, and I don't have any anger for him anymore. I truly am over all of it. It's so strange.
2. I'm ready I have been in counseling, dealing with everything that's been happening. I can truly say that I can be happy in this life with my kids and my God. The two most important loves in my life.
1. MMH understands all of it. HE respects me. We talk for hours, and not once has he tried to steer our conversation into areas of sexual talk. He really cares about me. I'm just walking around stunned. Stunned I tell you. So, it's not a love that makes me want to get married and have babies ( well, maybe it is ) but I've got my head on straight, and I'm just enjoying actually FEELING like a woman who matters to someone beyond her children again.
Pray for me to have wisdom.
9. I have seen at least 9 different places to live in the last few months. I found a large, affordable mobile home. Perfect for the kids and me. It's 2 years old, meticulously clean, in a fantastic school district. It doesn't even look like a mobile home.
8. I have been applying to jobs for the last 8 months, NOTHING. Then this week I finally started hearing back on all those resumes and applications. It's looking VERY good here.
7. 7 weeks ago, my Stepmother (who both looks and sounds like Granny from the Beverly Hillbillies) gave me a membership to EHarmony.
6. It took me 6 weeks to make the decision to sign up, not expecting anything, really. Once signing up, it did not look so good out there. Lots of men that I was matched with were very lonely. Ok. Not really lonely more like horny. I had one date. In the middle of the date, he announced that he lived with his mom and he had never had a girlfriend before, and oh, by the way he'd had a heart attack 3 months ago. He was 50. I began to go to EHarmony for the entertainment.
5. 5 days ago I met someone who actually didn't offend me on EHarmony. I was stunned. He was actually friendly, understood my jokes, had a job (!!!!), and was honest about himself. Not once in any communications we've had did he tell me how wonderful he was. Heck, when I still communicate with Dan, all I hear is how great he is and how I've thrown away something good.
4. I told a friend of mine about him (we shall call him Mr. Mysterious Heartbeats for now -- MMH for short), and she laughed at me. She laughed at me because I was being so cautious. She said that I needed to put down my hands, and start paying attention to the gifts that God has been giving me, in His time, in His way. Four amazing things. Gary is going to Iraq in about 4 weeks. In 8 weeks I will have custody of the kids full time ( I'm letting them finish their school year before getting them). I have finally gotten my state residency settled. I have been surrounded by godly women who love me and guide me.
3. I have heard from 3 women whom Dan has had sex with. They all have contacted me. It's freaky, and I don't have any anger for him anymore. I truly am over all of it. It's so strange.
2. I'm ready I have been in counseling, dealing with everything that's been happening. I can truly say that I can be happy in this life with my kids and my God. The two most important loves in my life.
1. MMH understands all of it. HE respects me. We talk for hours, and not once has he tried to steer our conversation into areas of sexual talk. He really cares about me. I'm just walking around stunned. Stunned I tell you. So, it's not a love that makes me want to get married and have babies ( well, maybe it is ) but I've got my head on straight, and I'm just enjoying actually FEELING like a woman who matters to someone beyond her children again.
Pray for me to have wisdom.
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