Monday, January 28, 2008

Life and stuff like it

I wanted to quick post a little about how my life is going.

As many of you have figured out that I am not in a relationship that I am completely thrilled with. I love Dan an awful lot, and when he is kind and normal, I'm thrilled to be with him. He tends to cycle into these horrible depressions that really shred the heck out my world.

I don't know if I want to be on a swing cycle like that for the rest of my life.

Anyway, I have been fairly certain that Dan is cheating on me. Of course I'm not intimate with him right now, because I just don't want to take any chances on catching something that I may not be able to cure with a simple shot if you know what I mean. I'm also not 100% sure, so I'm leaving myself open to being pleasantly surprised.

Because of that certainty, I am looking hard and serious for a good job. I'm hoping to get a job either with the state, or at Lockheed Martin. Both jobs would pay me well enough that I could easily live on my own and have spending money.

I have some savings, and I have confidence that I will be Just.Fine. I just know that I need to be smart. Not make rash judgements, and do the right thing.

In other news: I have re-established a relationship with 4 out of 5 siblings. It will be a cold, COLD day in hell before I speak with the 5th. We are a truly diverse group of siblings. There is about 18 years between me and my oldest sister, and then a couple years between her and Joe. Then there's the one I don't speak of and then the twins. Then 10 years later, there's me. We range the gamut from the fundamentalist, to the Episcopalian to the Scientologist, to the liberal mainstream to the "ain't going to church". I can truly say, though, that I am learning to just love them all wherever they are in their lives.

Now, for other things...Saturday is our big date at the Opera. We're going to see Carmen. I am going to read the libretto tomorrow.

So, there's the check in. Life is moving along, and I'm not willing to stand still and watch it go by me. It's kind of weird, the more I fiddle with planing where my life is going the more content and happy I get. I would think that it would be the opposite, but it is a lovely feeling.


I have two prayer requests. My dear friend Frances is dealing with the passing of her mother, and I want my phone to ring off the hook with job offers!

12 comments:

Jill said...

Hoping the phone does ring and soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aimeslee said...

Keeping good thoughts for you and your friend Frances. Thanks for sharing the underbelly crap. My Hubs goes into 'funks' and is very moody. I learned to just gripe about it to him til he got into his happier pants, but I realize that does not work for most. So I'm very lucky, but I would also probably be divorced if it didn't work. So, You're not alone. I really admire your calmness in the face of the cheating possibility, though. That would drive me right off the ranch. {{Hugs}}

:: gingerkitty :: said...

positive energy coming your way. Stay positive and it is all yours!
Good fortunes to you.

jill said...

keeping you in my thoughts. you seem amazingly calm and rational with everything. good place to be :)

Sarah C. said...

Katy, sorry to hear things are tough right now, but so proud of you for taking control of your life! ((HUGS))

Linda said...

Sending out positive thoughts to you. Stay postive and everything will work out they way you want it to.

Gabrielle Beck said...

Sounds like you have a good perspective on things!

Good luck finding the PERFECT job. Remember, when one door closes, it's because a better one is about to open. :)

toners said...

Sending you tons of (((hugs))) and positive thoughts. You are a strong lady and you will get through this one way or another. I can also relate about the family/sibling issues...

And thank you for your kind words about the DT! It means a lot and I am glad to have met you through blogworld :)

Barbara said...

You're being very brave and thoughtful. I have friends who are too tied to the emotions of the situation and can't be calm enough to make rational decisions and just leave (although staying will probably kill them). I'm happy for you that you see your way out, are making steps, and will find a life for yourself. I wish you peace and calm while finding your future and happiness will await you! And I'm praying for you friend and her family, and I'm hoping by the time I write this that your phone has already rung off the hook!

FlipFlop Mom said...

I'm so sorry you are going through this... you will be in my prayers and thoughts!!!!

I've been praying for a new job myself... but... I'm going to pray for you first!!! I hope it rings all day long!!! Ü

Darleen said...

Regarding my last comment, I hadn't read this post yet. Good luck finding the job and your own independance. Hugs and prayers coming your way. P.S. if you think he's cheating, I think I'd let him make his own stinken breakfast & lunch, just my own opinion. don't put too much stalk into it.

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